You know those mornings when you can't sleep at all? It was about 5:25 and I was up for the day... I did my three quick checks (email, Facebook and Pinterest) and then went downstairs to read. I'm going through The Purpose Driven Life again... I read it while in college, loved it and figured I'd give it a whirl again since so much has changed since that time (job, AJ, Drew, moving nine times and now no job). Rick Warrren (author of The Purpose Driven Life) really gave me something to think about with this statement and I distinctly remember it catching my attention and convicting me eight-ish years ago. If you are anything like me it's so easy to think other people's gifts / talents / abilities are so much more important then ours.
"You don't bring glory or pleasure to God by hiding your abilities or by trying to be someone else. You only bring him enjoyment by being you. Anytime you reject part of yourself, you are rejecting God's wisdom and sovereignty in creating you. God says, "You have no right to argue with your Creator. You are merely a clay pot shaped by a potter. The clay doesn't ask, 'Why did you make me this way?' ... There are no unspiritual abilities, only misused ones." (TPDL, p. 75)
Later on in another chapter he quotes St. Irenaeus...
The glory of God is a human being fully alive.
I just love this because it is so telling about who God is... He wants us to fully enjoy who he made us... I feel like I understand God a little more being a mom, I never would want to see Drew hiding who he is later on in life because he's ashamed of it or because he doesn't think his abilities are as good as someone else's, because Drew is amazing being Drew... I don't need Drew to be Mason (my friend Heather's baby), Mason already does a great job at it ... and I think it must be what God thinks whenever I try to be more like someone else instead of just being myself.
On a different note:
About 15 minutes ago I thought Drew was hungry so I put him in his chair and gave him some Cherrios. I am doing something on the iPad for two minutes at the island with him and when I look up his head is down on the counter and he had just fallen asleep. Of course I started laughing and wake him up. He's now a much happier baby sleeping in his crib. :)